Of course I decide to come back to blogging in the midst of <maybe> the most nonsensical time in my life so far. I do have my daughter to thank for that though; I’ve been giving myself such a hard time for not writing, not having or finding the time to write and then being worried about what I would say or how I would say it and her reminding that this is my blog and I can write about whatever I want whenever I want. These kids are so smart.

But back to shit being out of control – the attacks on Trans youth and Trans people in general on top of the supreme court’s decision to overturn Roe v Wade on top of the white supremacy on full display is just really a lot to deal with. And to be honest I’m pissed on so many levels.

I’m mad at the people who wouldn’t fight for us (Trans people) when they continually came (and are still coming) for our bodies and I’m mad at every single person that thinks that their religion is the way. We don’t all have to believe what you believe just like you don’t have to believe what I believe. That’s totally fine with me. That’s what freedom of religion actually means.

It isn’t enough just to be mad though and that’s the part I’m having trouble with. What am I supposed to do about this stupid shit that’s going on in the world? As I just typed that I thought of two specific people in my family who I know are against abortion and the only reason they are is because they think it’s what the Bible tells them to; it’s just like can you be a human more than you care about what a book says? Like why do you care so much what other people do with their bodies when it doesn’t affect you at all?

On Sunday, when I gave myself my shot of testosterone, what exactly changed in your life? I’m not going to boil it down to “every person that is for this decision needs to adopt a baby or foster a kid” but if you’re all big and bad about this – let’s get past the fact that you just don’t like something and solve the real, AND BIG, issues we really have. One of which is NOT the 1.5 million Trans people in the U.S. I’m trying to remember the last serial killer, school shooter, or terrorist that was a Trans person… I can’t. Can you? And cool that I have to use that as a scale.

I’m also pretty sick and tired of being expected to just sit back and take things as a community. No, I’m not just taking things. If I hear or see something out of pocket on ANY of these issues revolving around HUMAN rights, I’m definitely saying or doing something and so should you. And I’m not worrying about being the bigger person – not when little kids (KIDS!!!) are being shot just going to school, not when Trans people are being murdered for existing, not when people don’t have control over their own bodies, not when Black people are still treated unequally by our legal system – NO. Why should I worry about what these people think of me – I already know. They continue to show me.

There’s so many things I don’t understand also – I consider myself a smart person but I don’t understand this here government we’ve got. I just don’t. I get the three branches of government (kinda) but I don’t get why the “good” people aren’t doing anything. Are you being for real? We can’t figure it out? We can’t figure anything out? Why did we go so hard to get the house and the presidency? I’m sick of it – I just can’t believe we are actually here. Can’t believe that I saw a Pew Research poll about “Americans’ Complex Views on Gender Identity and Transgender Issues” that actually asked people to rate on a scale how accepting society has been of Transgender people. Like WHAT???? How is this a question and what is complex? Talk to a Trans person. Please I beg of you.

You don’t have to accept me – FYI. I’m literally not going anywhere and I exist.

Earlier I said what am I supposed to do about what’s going on – that’s the question we all have to ask ourselves. I’m going to keep doing what I’ve been doing. Talking about my experiences (MY ACTUAL TRUE LIVED EXPERIENCES), sharing other Trans stories on my podcast and being an advocate for Trans youth. I’m going to vote and protest and not support companies or businesses that don’t support human rights. I’m going to stand up for my community and every other minority community. That’s what I can do.

What are you going to do?